So me and my boyfriend broke up. It is probably one of the hardest things ive ever dealt with. He broke up with me and surprise surprise it was mainly because of my weight. His exact words were “Your weight makes you extremely unattractive, aspects of your personality need to change and you need to…
The half Packet of Crisps
The Half Packet of Crisps: I think feeling sorry for myself is partly why I am so overweight. Every day starts with another excuse for why I can’t start or stick to my diet. I feel so fat and disgusting and every day I hate my apperance a little more… okay maybe hate is a…
Am I in a constant state of denial
Good Morning from Rainy Ireland, As I sit at my desk in work, I really wonder why I can never stick to my diet. This Blog was originally meant to be a place where I could write about all my goals and successes but the more I write a blog the more I realize that…
Rome is nearly Here!! :O
So about 6 months ago I started a Holiday Diet. I was so sure that this time I would be at my ideal weight for the wedding abroad (family wedding) but it is now only 4 weeks away and I have barely lost anything (except for my determination). I was thinking about this before I got out…
I am Exhausted
I am so exhausted. I am so exhausted of being exhausted. The more I think about being exhausted the more exhausted I become. I can’t sleep anymore. I am always tired. I just want to scream at the top of my voice and punch and break everything around me but I don’t because I am…
The Road Less Travelled
Vorfreude the “joyful, intense anticipation that comes from imagining future pleasures”. This is what I suffer from. I have always spent hours writing up a perfect plan of how much weight I will lose and how great I will feel… but never actually doing anything about it (she says as she writes this blog) I…
It feels like forever…
It feels like forever since I started trying to lose weight. Even when I was 16 years old and had a perfect figure, I still wanted to lose weight. Never happy with how I looked and always trying to reach one level better. I am with my boyfriend over 3 years and I love him…
Humans are greedy
We as humans are greedy and with greediness come’s the desire to be perfect. To be “perfect” most of us want to change a lot of things in our lives. The problem is that we often try to change everything all at the same time :O I have been trying to do this for years…
February Goals
I cannot believe how quick the last month has gone. We are already in February and by now most people have either given up on their New Year’s Resolutions or broke many of them. This year I was clever. I decided to take on more “To do” New Year Resolution’s rather than simply “give up”…
Lose the Fat
I finally booked Rome yesterday 🙂 I have a wedding there in August (Not mine!) and I am really looking forward to it. I do not want to go to Rome in the scorching heat and be carrying all this excess weight. I have approximately 6 months to lose as much weight as possible. I…
Just trying to get by.... 